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Sunday, February 11th, 2007
4:15 pm	Spring Comes Again I felt it in my dreams, entangled in the trees. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 8th, 2007
6:58 pm	Arlene Mahwah is notorious for the "Jackson Whites" and infamous for Stag Hill. Recently, collegues of mine were joking about the inferiority of people from this poor section of my town. I began to think of the people I'd known and the stories I'd heard. One story stands out in my mind, and it's important for me to write it down now, before I forget forever: Arlene and I went through grade school together without ever being more than passing aquaintances, yet somehow for a few months of freshman year she became an amazing friend. Arlene was from the condos at the foot of "The Hill". Arlene talked roughly, listened to rap, wore baggy jeans and over sized t-shirts. She drank, smoked, and had sex. She was my vision of experience. I suppose I was drawn to her confidence, and lack of style that was a style all its own. We sat together in a Cooking class, and for a single semester we became close friends. I can't say whether the friendship would have lasted longer than a semester. Arlene got pregnant at 14, and dropped out of high school. The stereotype of a pregnant, fourteen year-old drop out, totally fullfills the stereotype of "The Hill", but the poignant memory Arlene leaves me with does not. I have always been hopelessly unorganized, and the cooking class Arlene and I shared required we keep an organized portfolio of all handouts. I was missing all except for three. At the last minute, Arlene gave me her handouts. She didn't know she was leaving school yet, but knew she wasn't doing well in all of her classes. She knew I traditionally did better in school, and thought it was more important for me to succeed. Yes, I was a bitch for accepting at the expense of her failure. I'm not proud of cheating. I'm not proud of letting her give me her papers. I am, however, extremely thankful for her kindness. This girl from Stag Hill, who no one ever expected anything substantial from, did me a completely selfless kindness. She is one of the angels who has helped me throughout my life. I would never call her inferior. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 31st, 2006
6:19 pm	Sumation This past year seems hopelessly long, and, while I was more sober than ever before, I remember less of it. I am lonely tonight, and I fear the new year will approach just as slowly as the old one passed. The clock has yet to reach 6:30, and i grow weary with the weight of hours still to come. Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 6th, 2006
2:05 am	PMS I love being a woman, except these times: I can't sleep and I wait, into the early morning, for the blood to come and bleed the craziness from my mind. Current Mood: melancholy (Comment on this)
Monday, October 2nd, 2006
10:45 pm	Be Nice To Me I Gave Blood Today I wonder if my blood type has influence over my love life: Type O Positive is compatible with all blood types, but I can only recieve O Positive or Negative. I'm the model of the molding submissive, all the time looking for someone exactly like me, or a close opposite. ::shruggs:: it sounded better immediately after I lost all that blood (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
9:50 pm	Plane of Panic It is most unsettling to hear the sounds of an aeroplane circling above your home after reading about nucleur war and the symptoms of radiation poisoning. Current Mood: sick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 22nd, 2006
8:37 pm	DeerKill At sixteen, I'm not sure I know exactly who I was. I do know that I never wanted to be sixteen again. Current Mood: sick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
12:33 am	A Saturday in July My Twenties are mourning my absence, and begging for spontaneity. Four years in, and I've spent the weekend at home. Work is a life style of isolation. Sadly, I long for fall and the passing of time. Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 29th, 2006
1:03 am	The Wolf with the Red Roses Generations too late, I've discovered the sexiest thing ever! Meatloaf's "The Wolf with the Red Roses" intro had me on my knees, and even though I know the ending, I still offer myself to the wolf with the red roses every time. Current Mood: energetic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
11:00 am	Cleaning Some how, when I clean, my room gets more disasterous. I'll through away two garbage bags full of things, and still there seems less space than I started out with. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
8:57 am	Hunting Babies I've got a job to hold me up. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 5th, 2006
1:31 am	Ways to Occupy Time Lately I've been busy attempting to differentiate good from evil, and understand the magical forces at work in the universe. I've made limited progress. Today I went to a crawfish festival. I later googled people's first and last names. This made me feel very much like a stalker, which I'm sure is evil and why I have a tummy ache. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
7:25 pm	The End of a Semester I'm on my way to becoming a teacher? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 7th, 2006
3:40 am	I got on the back of a bike with my dad today, after I know he'd had several beers. He took me out for dinner for my birthday. When he wanted to stay for a second drink at the restaurant, I told him, "Not while you're driving your motorcycle. What you do with your own life is your own proerogative, but not when you're driving me too." I had a dream that woke me up and made me cry tonight. It's bad enough to have an alcoholic dad, it's even worse when he has a motorcycle. Current Mood: scared (Comment on this)
Friday, April 21st, 2006
3:42 pm	poor woman dancing I'm unemployed, and hopelessly unmotivated. I don't have the money to go out, but somehow I must end up at a few plays or museums for class. The expenses of life are wearing me down, and my room is a hopeless jumble books and clothes.Perhaps today I'll pay my bills. Current Mood: blah (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 14th, 2006
1:49 am	Route 17 All my life I've rolled up and down hills, but until tonight I've never noticed. (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 30th, 2006
3:14 pm	Everything feels broken. Current Mood: sad (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
8:41 pm	Waiting for Persephone Today I crave poetry and find only prose. Current Mood: nauseated (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 19th, 2006
10:26 pm	Crash Some would argue that the movie fails, because it only presents "the problem" and offers no solution; however, it is necessary to discern the true problem, before a solution can be found. Current Mood: irritated (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
2:24 am	Rocky Mountain High Friday The plane flight, and the girl- complete with jet lag and a karaoke bar of her friends. Saturday I rode the bull and my ass is still sore with my mind reeling over Night Watch. Sunday Old Chicago is more expensive than the new city. Monday Shaking from alcohol. Tuesday A flight, a moon, and the mountains. (2 Comments |Comment on this)